Don't ever take things for granted ;

POA cluster 2006. (:

wheets~ yesterday slept around 12plus. today wake up around 645am. so early. ): i still want to sleep! LOL. i dont deny, i'm a pig. wahahas. wake up liao, prepare then around 730am jiu go take bus go school liao. reach school around 810am. just nice. went up to the hall with jason and chengsiong. waited for cassandra to come. cause i'm like so lonely lah.

the whole cluster event started at 9am. theres four schools involved. monfront[is it spelled this way? LOL], clementi town, st grab and of cause, YUYING. (: hahas. we are separated into 24 groups. and i'm in the 23 group. cassandra 22, jason i forget liao, chengsiong 24, the last group. LOL. i'm in the same group as leonard. my former leader. LOL. and afew from the other school derh. we started of with a millionaire challenge(preliminary round). hahas. doing multiple-choice questions. 50questions, and its not easy okae. LOL. need to crack our brains. and somemore i so long never touch POA liao. XD then after that got a tea break until 10plus. then we started having games! amazing race!!! its sososo fun lah. hahas. then until 1220pm, they provided lunch for us. then around 1250pm, went to the computer lab for whatever computerised accounting. LOL. then around 2pm, went back to the AVA room for the final round of games. the whole event ended around 4pm. (: i had fun. and knowing new friends. their POA also so pro. faints* and they ordered KFC for each and every single one of us. arent they sweet? LOL.

i'm a bigbig gurl.

in a bigbig world.

its not a bigbig thing if you leaving me.

but i dodo feel,

miss you much.

Walk away, Loved. 10:01:00 PM `

its a fun day. (:

yesterday slept around 12plus. today wake up around 10plus. LOL. then around 1pm, went to my godmum's house. eat then around 245pm, go take mrt to somerset. meet up with salina. (: then we walk to cine. walk around findng presents for baoyu and jiajia. hahas. at last, we decided to buy a packet of hellokitty's sweet for each and a cup each. hahas. hope they will like it. but didnt talk to jiajia much. cause she is like so busy. but no doubt, she's beautiful. (:

around 6pm, salina jiu go off liao. then i was abit bored. cause i dont know them well. hahas. but luckily baoyu got pei me, thanks gurl. (: took a number of pics with them. i saw liling! she's so pretty. she's tall and her eyes damn big! LOL. around 7plus, reagan come meet me. cause i'm so bored. and like so lonely. so i ask hiim come down. hahas. then we walk to PS. went kfc to eat. then jiu go take bus home liao. cause my phone going low batt liao. sorry lianiee.

Walk away, Loved. 9:43:00 PM `

do you know i still love you?

roars* stupid reagan heng! wake me up early in the morning when its not even 11am! LOL. i'm so tired can. slept around 1plus yesterday. and the stupid reagan keep calling my phone just to disturb me from sleeping. LOL. he's so boliao lah. XD just kidding lah. later he say he dont wanna talk to me anymore. LOL.

anyway, wake up liao. slack until 12pm, then karmen called me. her POA lesson end liao. so i faster prepare then go heartland meet her. there got xujun, erin, qinyong and i forget the other boy is who liao. didnt go and notice hiim. LOL. after that, we eat yoshi. then around 150pm like that, we walk back to school. so stupid lah. for whatever oral practice. LOL. all the way until 6pm lah. for goodness sake. LOL. but me nanny karmen erin and hweehan is like living in our own world lah. we are noisy, i dont deny. hahas. whatever~ after that, went hougang mall with nanny karmen and erin. went food court to have dinner then went walkwalk. erin bought a tube for me! LOL. thanks twintwin. i will buy something back for you, on your birthday, i bring you go shopping. LOL. iloveyou. after that, hoki came. then around 8plus, me nanny and erin jiu go home liao. karmen and hoki go tianmimi. LOL. XD

Walk away, Loved. 11:02:00 PM `

mayb to you.

yesterday slept around 1plus. LOL. i also dont know what i doing. sleep so late. today wake up at 11am. so early right. so tired lah. after that slack and use computer all the way until 5pm, went kovan to meet up with lianiee, peixuan mummy, queenie and huimin mummy. hahas. so long never meet them lerh. i miss them so much can. we slack at kovan. eat and go heartland walkwalk. then go back mac slack. around 9pm, i need to go home lerh. cause tomorrow afternoon still need go back school for whatever oral practice. lianiee pei me walk to the bus stop okae, first time hor. LOL. she ask me to write in my blog bigbig. LOL. hahas. and well, thats my sunday.

Walk away, Loved. 10:08:00 PM `

our supposed 15th months.

today whole day at home. its so damn boring. LOL. yesterday slept around 12am. today wake up at 1230pm. i'm such a pig! hahas. wake up liao, all the way was using computer. searching for new blogskins. but nothing caught my eye. hahas. so sticking back to this. (: and i find it nice. i'm bored lah. sobs~

Walk away, Loved. 10:38:00 PM `

its not that easy.

school was as usual. and today is so-called the last day of school, kinda wierd. got back our report book today. my results was so disappointing. i'm only happy with my chinese marks. humans is the subject that pull down everything. sighs~ i will work double hard for my N level! gonna score real well. my O level POA arh~ i want a A1 can. i will work for it. i believe i can do it. people, have faith in me please. XD

english: 57-C5.
chinese: 77-A1.
maths: 72-A2.
POA: 73-A2.
combinedsciences: 71-A2.
combinedhumans: 36-F9. ):

total: 393.7/600 ):
percentage/average: 65.6
class position: 7/39 ): sobs~

after school, stay in class. nanny cried. nanny, dont cry. dont be sad. we work hard together okae? cheerup. iloveyou okae? XD haas. my afterall was so lousy can. i lose to alot of people!!! sighs~ disappointment. around 3pm, left the school. went mac awhile then go KFC to eat. after that at heartland slack until 7plus then go home.

Walk away, Loved. 10:03:00 PM `

right or wrong.

oh well, didnt update yesterday. yesterday reach home around 11pm after the band concert. the concert was nice lah. but i'm damn tired lah. reach home, around 12plus then sleep. yawns* i'm so tired.

today, went to school as usual. school was boring. yup, boring. its always so. i'm not really looking forward for school. can i say i go school just to see hiim? mayb. i dont know. after school, stay in class with nanny, karmen, erin, hweehan and mingyi. was chatting and discussing about something. and we know whats going on lerh. hahas. because i'm way too clever lah. XD after that 2plus, nanny hweehan and mingyi went for their lesson while me karman and erin sit in the canteen. cause its raining so heavily. and we are stuck in school. stay in school until 5plus. hoki came and nanny they all derh lesson end liao. so we headed home.

you are so cold, why?

Walk away, Loved. 9:18:00 PM `

PRELIM1 RESULTS -

got back all the paper today. wasnt satisfied at all. i dont have any A1!!! can you believe it?! sighs~ i'm sososo disappointed. i cried twice. once for my POA and once for my maths. my best two subjects, but i cant even get a A1. WTF~

here goes my lousy results-

english paper1: 38/60.
english paper2: 41/80.

total-79/140.

chinese paper1: 48/70.
chinese paper2: 50.5/70.
chinese listening: 20/20. (:

total-118.5/160.

maths paper1: 49/60.
maths paper2: 23/40. ): sighs~

total-72/100. A2. ):

POA paper1: 23/30.
POA paper2: 49.9/70.

total-72.9/100. A2. sighs~

geography: 19/50.
socialstudies: 17/50.

total(combinedhumans)-36/100. F9. i expected. hais.

chemistry: 32/50.
physics: 39/50.

total(combinedsciences)- 71/100. A2.

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after that, my mood wasnt that good lah. but i tried to smile. went heartland with chrys, karmen, erin, hweehan, nanny and mingyi. first time so many people lah. LOL. but around 3plus, nanny, hweehan, mingyi, karmen and chrys jiu leave liao. left me and erin. we stay at heartland and rot. around 5plus, we went compass. she wanted to buy something. then reach home 8pm. gosh, i'm tired.

you are never there.

Walk away, Loved. 9:10:00 PM `

longlong ago.

screams~ tomorrow getting back exams paper lerh! scary sia~ but i know my humans will confirm fail. my chemistry too. english i really wish for a pass. my POA!!! i really wish i can score realreal well! emaths, as high as possible! chinese, A2 if possible. hope my physics can do much better than chemistry. so that my combined science wont be so lousy lah. so exited + nervous lah. roars*

today went to school as usual. but my sunburn is so pain lah. school was boring lah. have english oral in the morning. reading and conversation was okae. but the picture, die. LOL. mahinda say i did well for the reading section. grins* after recess, went to the hall for whatever talk. its so damn hot inside lah. well, after school, went mac. slacked until 5pm. jiu go home liao.

Walk away, Loved. 9:42:00 PM `

let it run.

roars* my leg is soso pain! i have difficulties walking and difficulties wearing clothes. LOL. its very painful. i will scream if anyone knock onto me seriously. today wake up around 11plus. but i'm still very tired. nothing much lah. use computer until 4pm. went to take a nap until 630pm. wake up liao, use computer awhile until 8pm, went for dinner with my family including my sister they all. went konghwa there to eat. eat until kinda full lah. yup, reach home around 940pm. and thats my sunday. bored-ness~

tomorrow go school sure nothing to do derh. dont know what to bring arh~

Walk away, Loved. 9:57:00 PM `

the skin is on fire.

i'm feeling so hot now. my whole body is burning hot. roars* wake up early in the morning, 715am. tired~ went to take a bath then gave xujun a call at around 735am to wake her up. then around 820am like that, jiu leave house go take 80 to kovan. i was the first to reach, as expected. LOL. nanny just wake up around 9am. which is the time we are supposed to meet. erin reach after me. so we were there waiting for nanny, karmen, yanshan and xujun. they reach around 940am? me and erin was like rotting lah. LOL.

after that, we headed to sentosa. we have lots of fun. suntanning, swimming, burying xujun and nanny. LOL. around 4pm, went to QUENE UP to shower. can you imagine, the quene is damn bloody long and those people are takng their own sweet time bathing lah. LOL. we spent around 1hour plus in there lah. after that we headed to PS. eat then walkwalk around. so cold~ dont know why. LOL. my erin look like abnn~ LOL. she is red-er than me. XD my leg the burn is so damn bloody pain! screams~

P.S: a new techno song, the skin is on fire! LOL. created by lummeizhen. (:

Walk away, Loved. 9:30:00 PM `

she is, and i'm not.

a kinda harsh post yesterday. but thats what i wanted to say. hais. i will only want hiim and only hiim. no one else. today went to school as usual. its was boring, damn bloody boring. teachers didnt even teach. and no exams papers are given back. i'm awaiting for my results. hoping that i will score well. nothing much lah today, as i say. school is terribly bored.

after school. around 1240pm. went heartland slack awhile until 2plus. then me karmen erin and nanny decides to go compass. went there walkwalk, shopshop. wahahas. we are so into shopping now. nanny wasnt with us. she with her friend lah. around 3plus, went foodcourt to eat. we three are so hungry lah. LOL. after that we went hougang mall walkwalk. we like so free right. but really nothing to do lah. after that around 5plus jiu go home liao. we are going sentosa tomorrow. me karmen erin xujun and nanny. finally i can go out. wahahas~ just hope my mum wont nag at me. shall have a fun time tomorrow and get myself burn. XD hahas.

Walk away, Loved. 9:18:00 PM `

i dont wish to leave.

sighs~ cant i dont want any more guys to love me? i cant give you all a chance. and i wont too. you all will never understand me. stop wasting your time on me. you will not get anything in return. i'm not worth your love, really. just let me do whatever i want. dont force me to give hiim up. if you do that, you will only make me dislike you. dont please. just dont waste your time on me. i'm stubborn. no matter how well you treat me, how long you wait for me, how much money you spent on me, how well you can sweet talk, nothing gonna affect me. dont get me pissed off. dont care about everything i do. i'm single, i'm not your stead, whatever i do is none of your business. i wont say the name out, but i hope the person will do some reflections. hais. i really have enough. so i have to write out. i just wish to be friends. nothing more. dont ask for more. i might avoid you. i'm not used to people treating me so good. cause i'm not your right one, never yours. understand? theres better gurls out there. so dont waste your time on me. go for better ones. they will appreciate you, but not for me. dont anyhow guess who's the person i'm referring to. wanna know, ask me personally.

today, woke up around 1250pm. wahahas. i'm such a pig. but sad lah. my besties went sentosa. i wanna go. but my mum nag, say i everyday go out. so shit lah. exams is over, cant i relax myself? you everytime say i never study. its because when i'm studying, you are also nagging. and so you will never see me studying infront of you! that doesnt mean i didnt study. i study outside. and not at home. cause you will only make me going crazy. at home for the whole day. nothing much.

Walk away, Loved. 9:58:00 PM `

its always there.

today went to school for my last paper! and now i'm feeling so relax! lalalas~ after exams was only around 930am. stay in school to eat then teach karmen they all POA. then after they go up for their POA paper1, we went home. went home prepare then meet nanny at kovan with Q also around 1plus. then go PS meet up with xujun and erin. karmen went home to change. erin bought a pair of shoes. quite nice lah. then we went kfc to eat. yanshan came, then karmen came.

we at PS walkwalk. nanny went look for her friend. then walk until tired lerh, went starbucks to sitsit. hahas. then sit awhile, then yanshan went to meet her mum and xujun went home. she look damn tired lah. LOL. after that the rest of us walk to paragon. inside slack awhile. until 5plus. karmen went home and erin went to look for meieng. so me and Q stay at heeren and wait for mummy they all. they reach liao, we go walkwalk then go centrepoint. queenie and huimin buy bag. then walk to cine, they buy cookies and finally. we went fareast. went long-john for dinner. LOL. jolin is working. hahas. i want to work too! any job intro?! after that around 8plus, me jiu go home liao. cause my mum nagnagnag lah. hais~

Walk away, Loved. 10:16:00 PM `

thanks you.

i wake up at 1030am today. was feeling alright when i woke up. as in not so tired. but not, i'm freaking tired. i dont know why. wake up liao, use computer until 1plus, went kovan, meet up with jasper. yup. dont think too far. LOL. went PS to watch poseidon. the movie is nice. very touching too. but its damn bloody cold inside lah. haas. come out only around 430pm. call peixuan. but she's still at home. so shit. LOL. so nvm. we went walkwalk. walk all the way down to near taka then walk back again. to waste time at the same time, to warm ourselves. cause too cold liao. LOL.

we at PS mrt station wait for peixuan they all. but Q and bong come first. peixuan they all reach around 530pm? not sure. after we meet up, jasper jiu went home liao. thanks for the movie yeah. (: after that, we went cine. then go long john silver to eat. after that, go fareast look for jolin. cause she at there working. she so cute lah. LOL. after that around 8plus i jiu leave lerh. bobian. very tired. somemore tomorrow still got exams. but nvm, its the last paper! wahahas.

i wish i could forget you.

but i cant, i truly cant.

i've tried my best.

i just wish for some love.

Walk away, Loved. 10:13:00 PM `

gone were the days.

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Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this worldSo much so that you tend to live in your head most of the timeYou have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult
You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.
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today went to school as usual. but was kinda tired. today got two paper. first was chinese paper2. the paper was alright lah. but dont think i will score well anyway. after that was maths paper2. the paper was okae. at first i thought i will do pretty well. but well~ i made some mistakes lah. but i hope i can score well. after that was chinese listening compre, i think i will do well bah. (:

after that, went heartland with karmen, nanny and erinna. went mac sit awhile then get chemistry notes from erinna. thanks my twintwin. wheets~ i left the last paper! on wednesday. hahas. didnt put high hopes. i know i cant do well. but will try my best lah. after that, we at heartland slack. went THIS FASHION, karmen bought a shirt, erin bought a skirt. i wanna buy also. but sad lah. i'm broke. sighs~ and i still owe erin $5. goodness. after that, erin went home. then me, karmen, hoki, Q and reagan went singapore post. went THIS FASHION again~ karmen bought a skirt to pei her shirt. its nice lah. i wish i could buy too. ): after that, we went foodcourt to eat then around 7plus jiu go home lerh.

Walk away, Loved. 9:32:00 PM `

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!

wheets~ today is mothers' day. so happy mothers' day to all the mothers in the world. no doubt, you guys are great people. though i dont like my mum sometime, but deep in me, i love her alot, yesh alot. sighs~ the only problem is she dont understand me well enough. today wake up at 1230pm. use computer until around 2plus, my sister ask us to go out together. so they came around 3plus. me and my dad went down and meet them. my mum wasnt at home. so we went parkway. my sis bought a new phone nokia6280. i envy. i want change phone also. hais. after that, we went expo. got SALES lah. hahas. bought pillows. XD then after that, come back home fetch my mum then we go heartland there to have dinner. hahas. me and my sis both bought a pair of shoes. mine is $19.90. hers, i dont know. =X both also very nice lah. haas.

boy, i hope everything goes well for you. dont stress yourself too much. mayb you dont need me now. but remember if one day, you need listening ears, i'm always here. take good cares of yourself. i dont wish to see anything bad happening on you. i know you always want to get good results, but just work hard can lerh. i dont want you to stress yourself, understand? no matter what, i will always be here, be it as a friend. stay happy always. (:

Walk away, Loved. 10:24:00 PM `

no one say letting go of you would be easy.

today wake up around 7plus. i'm so freaking tired. yesterday slept around 1am. goodness. wake up liao prepare to go school. meet hweehan on bus then reach school around 9plus10. went up to the class for the whatever chemistry mock exam. very little people only lor. 4E&4G, add up not more than 30people come. the paper, i dont even know how to know. i only did around 10questions. sighs~ i'm such a failure right. but after that, miss chen go through the answers with us. after that, around 12pm. went for lunch with karmen, nanny, erin and hweehan. (: then around 1plus2 like that jiu go take bus home.

nanny waited for me at my house downstairs. with Q also. last minute, nanny tell me she got tuition. so she went for her tuition then me and Q go marinasquare to meet up with karmen and hoki. OMG~ they are so damn sweet can. make me miss the past so much. hais. shopshop around. around 6plus, we headed to bugis. meet up with nanny also. then we went hawker eat. then walkwalk again. my leg is damn tired lah. and i'm wearing high heels lah. ): painful~ then we went home around 10plus. thanks people, you guys rocks. (:

Walk away, Loved. 11:31:00 PM `

its been eight months.

yesh. oh well. i'm tired. nevermind. today wake up around 11plus. kinda early lah. but dont know why. just dont feel like sleeping anymore. wake up lerh, slack until 3plus. reach lianiee's house around 4pm. which is so early. everyone haven reach yet. LOL. then wait for jolin huimin and peixuan, then we go a so-called supermarket to buy all the bbq stuffs and food all these.

after that, jolin and huimin took one cab. they headed for pasir ris first. cause all the taxi's uncle dont want take 5passenagers. then me, lianiee and peixuan took another cab, we went hougang plaza to collect food from peixuan's dad stall then headed down pasir ris. meet up with them then we jiu go in liao. set up everything. (: we should be proud of ourselves. cause all the things so damn heavy and we are all gurls okae. haas.

then three guys came. queenie's friend. i also dont know them. but its alright. around 8pm, me and gillian go 'fetch' queenie, and 5guys. hahas. then jiu went back in. chat, play, scream and have fun. hahas. i have enjoyed myself today. thanks BESTIES. i love all of you. (: not forgetting, my laopa, you rocks okae.

Walk away, Loved. 12:12:00 AM `

the breaking moment

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sighs~ i'm having a headache now. didnt have enough sleep these few days. dying soon. today had geography and POA paper1. geography, well~ its no surprise if i fail. but it will be a surprise if i pass. cause i didnt even bother to study/read-up. hahas. just plainly lazy. and i know my humans will never pass. so yah. after that was POA paper1. the paper was alright. not really difficult. cause the MCQs questions. and not all on theory. more on calculation. so its okae. (: hope i can do well. after that, karmen was waiting for me. thanks gurl. erin didnt come today. she's down with fever. hope she's alright. (: after that, me and karmen stay in school to eat. eat hao lerh, went heartland walkwalk awhile then go mac slack. Q came, followed by bong, reagan and nanny. nothing much. around 3pm jiu go home liao. so early. LOL.

GREAT, theres no exams/school tomorrow. finally can take a break. but tomorrow going out with BESTIES to celebrate jolin's birthday which is on 14may. decided to celebrate it earlier. shall have a great day tomorrow. but i have to come home early. because saturday i need to go back to school for the whatever chemistry mock exam. well~ sickening. still got afew more papers to go next week. monday, maths paper2 and chinese paper2 and listening compre. tuesday, i got no paper! wednesday, the last paper, chemistry. -.- wondering how to study for it. hais.

Walk away, Loved. 9:37:00 PM `

ai wo bah.

i know it myself. you will never love me. sighs~ today had POA paper2 and english paper2. had english paper2 first. the paper was damn freaking difficult. it kill me seriously. after that was POA paper2. my question4 cant balance! cries* i cried. hais. i really hope i can score A1 for POA. i dont wish to fail or get low marks. tomorrow will be geography and POA paper1. my geog, i'm prepared to fail seriously. POA paper1, i will try to score as much as i can. cause its 30MCQ questions. and its all on theory. i hate theory lah. ):

after exams, around 1plus. went mac with karmen. amy they all was there. nanny and erin meet us up later. i hope amy will cheerup lah. went home around 6pm.

Walk away, Loved. 9:49:00 PM `

i wish for some love.

sighs~ i'm so tired now. i wake at 3am today okae. and i'm so damn tired. today, my twintwin wake me up at 3am. thanks my dear. i wake up lerh, study physics all the way until 530am. then go bath and prepare for school. wa, feeling damn tired when i reach school. approached mr ong for some physics questions. i really hope i can do well. first time i wake up so early just to study lah. ): the paper was alright. but i didnt read the instructions so i ended up doing the whole paper. sighs~ but still okae lah. if can get above 35, i will be damn bloody happy lah. but its very difficult. my physics drop alot lerh. hais.

after the paper, its only around 930am. so me, nanny, erin, karmen and hweehan stay in school to eat. cause its much more cheaper lah. hahas. after eating, hweehan went home. then the rest of us went mac. its already around 11am. sit awhile, everyone was very restless. so we decide to go home. but in the end, me and erin ended up in nanny's house. LOL. at there so fun lah. we took alot of pics using nanny's web-cam. haas. over 60plus pics in just 15mins? we so pro right. some of the pics very lame derh lah. we stay there until 3plus. then jiu go home liao.

reach home, took a nap until 7plus. still very tired. gonna do some POA and revise before i go to bed again. MUST REN! a MUST to achieve good results. (: tomorrow would be english paper2 and POA paper2. for goodness sake. i die liao lah. english just aim for a pass. but my POA i cant aim for a pass. i'm aiming for A1, as usual. but is that possible? sighs~

today morning, i wake up at 3am to study right, you know what my mum say to me. she said everyday go and and PLAY, then homework never finish. oh, WTF?! when did i go out and play? I DIDNT! i went out and study with my friends. cause i know, if i stay at home and study, you will also be nagging. so must as well i stay outside and study. so what you want from me? TELL ME! i have been tolerating you for near to 16years. have you ever understand how i feel? you dont trust me, no point if i say so much. nothing will get into you anyway. i hate my mum. how? i dont wish to. i have tried to accept her. but what did i get in return? her negative thoughts, her negative words. she dont even understand me. sighs~ i'm her daughter, what wrong did i done to deserve all her nonsenses? i have enough, so enough that i have nothing more to say nor do. i just hope she dont bother me anymore. let me be who i am. my tears drop, my heart sink.

Walk away, Loved. 9:13:00 PM `

is it crush or love?

well~ today got maths paper1 and socialstudies paper. maths still alright lah. only one question dont know how to do. hopefully can get above 50? possible? i hope so. provided no careless mistakes lah. hahas. socialstudies leis, hmmmm. just wish for a pass. but dont know will pass anot. hais. my humans is a gone-case. after exams, pei xujun wait for mr peh to pass her notes then jiu go home liao. then meet up with karmen and erinna around 4plus. but awhile later karmen jiu go home liao. cause she forget to bring her physics notes along. hongsters, bong, Q they all also there. sit at a table with reagan, Q and erinna. i'm happy that reagan still got talk to me lah. (: lianiee and mummy they all was there too. around 9pm jiu leave liao. gonna get some sleep then wake up and STUDY! physics tomorrow! screams*

is this love or just a crush?

Walk away, Loved. 9:49:00 PM `

will you ever understand?

AHGURL, you're a Steady Supporter

Stand by your man — that's just something you naturally do. Once you've committed to a relationship, you are a constant companion who enjoys the comfort and stability that comes from being a couple. Not quick to judge, accuse, or think the worst, you have a lot of trust (in him and in yourself), and you rarely worry about where he is or who he's with.For you, mutual respect is of utmost importance. You are comfortable and confident in your own skin, making you a great pillar of strength in all your relationships. Whether he's striving to climb a mountain or land a promotion, you have his back. Best part is, you know he's got yours too.

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well, today is sunday. tomorrow got maths paper1 and socialstudies. and the problem is i haven even start studying lah. gonna read up before i sleep later. today wake up around 12plus. still damn tired. but just wake up lor. yesterday sleep around 1plus again. wake up lerh, nothing much. just use computer. use almost the whole day lah. around 6plus, go dye my hair black myself. my hand now is also black. and my hair is damn bloody black lah! sobs~ after that, around 7plus, went for dinner with my parents and my niece. eat the same thing again. fish soup with rice. after that jiu come back liao.then cut my nails. arbo tomorrow no exams. then just finish ironing my uniform. and there goes my sunday. hais. EXAMS BLUE~

Walk away, Loved. 10:01:00 PM `

i guess, nothing's gonna change.

i'm feeling very tired now, can fall asleep anytime.

today wake up at 11plus. damn tired lah. yesterday sleep around 1plus. meet up with karmen and erinna at around 2plus. erinna passed me the socialstudies notes and black hair dye she jiu left liao. then me and karmen stayed at mac. the hongsters are there. around 4plus, chrys came. awhile later, Q came also. hahas. we studied until 7plus. me, chrys, karmen and kenneth decided to go PS for dinner. we went cafe cartel to eat. the mango cake is damn nice! we eat until the four of us is very full. the price is also very nice lah. $80plus. so expensive right. and i felt very bad. cause i only paid $5. as i only got $10 left. and i need to top-up my ez-link. i'm sorry kenneth. i will treat you someday. (: eat hao lerh already 10plus liao. so we went take MRT go home lerh.

i went home on my own. so independent right. haas. was thinking of alot of things on the way back. sighs~ gonna dye my hair black tomorrow. fcuk. i will miss my hair lah. stupid miss ida. i hate the school now.

Walk away, Loved. 11:47:00 PM `

my IQ~

Your IQ score is 104!
You've got a very experiential way of learning and a strong mathematical mind and you have mastered the art and science of precision. That's what makes you a Precision Processor. For you, life is a series of equations. Your brain is naturally predisposed to intense mathematical acuity, so it's second nature for you to cut to the heart of an issue, to discover quick solutions while others get bogged down in unnecessary details. This allows you to communicate a variety of ideas to other people, so don't keep it to yourself.

Walk away, Loved. 12:09:00 PM `

i wanna be with you.

feeling so fcuked up today. today is the first time my hair colour kena caught lah. stupid miss ida. the problem is i went reborning then the chemical make my hair become like that so its my fault again lah? fcuk sia. she dont even want to hear us explain. all she say was, if monday your hair is not black, you dont have to take exams. ARH~

after school, around 12plus. went home. bath then meet up with erinna around 3pm. went mac study. with karmen, amy and Q. until around 6plus, erinna went home. then around 8pm, amy went home then the three of us went bugis. meet up with xujun and yanshan. around 11pm, i jiu leave liao. at MRT station saw mummy they all. they going back hougang. hahas. i love them. but i miss queenie. i'm very tired. and i dont wish to dye my hair black. my hair is really naturally abit brownish! fcuker.

i'm feeling very down today.

mood swing until very jialat.

i'm sorry people, especially Q.

very sorry. i just wish to be alone.

give me a break from everything.

Walk away, Loved. 11:59:00 PM `

differences - further and further.

today is the start of prelim. had chinese paper1 first. i hope i can do well. the paper was alright. after that was english paper1, still okae. but hope i didnt write out of point. hais. after this two paper its already. 12plus. went AVA room for geography lesson. not counted as a lesson lah. just going through the test paper. i get 2/10. XD so pro right? hais. i also dont know what i doing.

after that went mac. kenneth, Q, karmen and me. studied. then around 6plus, kenneth and Q pei me go collect my specs! been waiting for so long lah. haas. so happy! after that jiu go home liao.

slow down the time please.

i dont seems to be myself.

give me more time to adapt to the changes.

its hurting, too much.

Walk away, Loved. 9:27:00 PM `

my dearest besties*

too many things happening these few days. i'm feeling so stress up. and somemore its like exams period! sighs~ whywhywhy? just whats happening? i dont wish to lose anyone of you. you gurls mean too much to me. is our friendship so fragile? i really hope not. we will be forever and ever, wouldnt we? dont like things spoilt us just like that. i just hope everything will be alright.

today was alright. but tired. yah, mentally tired i mean. sighs~ too many things troubling me. and i'm feeling so stress. can i like fail my preliums. i'm not in the mood to study and chiong at all. arh~ today, i went home like right after school okae. hahas. because i bringing all my under-table derh books home. and its like so bloody heavy. so i went home to put first. then bath then went down to meet karmen and erinna. Q was with us too. then kenneth, zouxian and lizheng joined us. we were at white tangerine. i was doing my POA then copy the chemistry notes. well~ around 5plus, erinna, karmen, lizheng and zouxian went home. then the three of us went mac to study. lianiee and jolin was there. (: i was still copying my notes lah. chatted with them. then huimin came, followed by queenie. something happen. sighs~ dont wish to say out. dont bother to ask too.

around 8plus, peixuan mummy came. then waited for levi. she reached around 9pm. queenie talk to her. but now i dont know what happen lerh. hope everything will be alright.

take me to somewhere familiar.

my life now is so unknown.

i dont know where i am.

lost in everything.

i miss you.

Walk away, Loved. 10:43:00 PM `

you stop listening.

i felt so broken up inside! roars* whats are friends?! i wonder. dont pretend please. it brings you nowhere. if you dare to say people, be ready that they will come to you one day. think of all the outcome before you do or say anything. why are there backstabbers? fcuk off lah. talking bad about someone is it so great? oh please. are you all so bored till like you got nothing better to do? laughing my head off`people are changing. and a advise to everyone- not everyone in your life can be trusted. you will never know when they will backstab you. and for those people, put yourself in the shoes of the person you are backstabbing. if you are that person, how would you feel? think over.

lets rewind back to yesterday. (:
MONDAY-1MAY

yesterday, wake up at 830am. which is so damn bloody early. i also dont know why i wake up so early lah. mayb i cant sleep? i also dont know. wake up, just slacking all the way until 2plus, went to meet karmen and Q at mac at 3pm. hey, we are studying okae. hahas. i'm always a goodgurl. XD study halfway, we went popular. to buy stationery and stuffs lah. i spent like $7.35 on like two blue pens, two so-called markers. so damn expensive lah. sobs. my heart pain lah. went back mac study until 6plus, nanny and erinna came to meet us. we went heartland walkwalk awhile then we went jalan kayew or whatever to have our dinner. i dont know how to spell. hahas. meet up with xujun and yanshan also. i ate roti prata. haas. not bad lah. after eating, walk until xujun house downstairs. called yuitpei. talked to her and asked her stuffs. fcuk lah. she keep quiet like all the way lah. only answer abit. we are like so pissed off lah. especially xujun. she's so damn hot. well, after that jiu go home liao. reach home around 11pm. yuitpei called me. i thought what happen sia. she was like so afraid lah. her voice so soft. like i going to eat her up like that. LOL. then i tell her got anything in school then say. i need to do my things. then she was like 'orh okae'. after i done my things, bath and whatever, i slept at 12am. i'm dying.

TODAY!-2may

today wake up at 530am! goodness. only 5hours of sleep. my eyebags! gosh. my eyes is so tired. like can fall asleep anytime. LOL. anyway, today school was boring. and i'm so sad lah. i didnt get to see hiim today! can you imagine how depressed i am. sighs~ we are in the same school! but i didnt see hiim at all! fcuk. anyway, today recess talked to yuitpei. she look as though she's going to cry any minute. do we look that firece or rather that frightening? LOL. whatever. after that, xujun say wanna go find danwei. so we go find her lor. talked to her. well, nothing much. just hope that they will like really wake up and think before they talk lah. i dont wish to cause any trouble also.

after school, meet up with chrys. went KFC to eat. with erinna too. (: after that, went mac to study. i read up abit of geography. hey, at least i tried. my geography is so shit lah can. whatever. i dont think i will pass also. lianiee they all was there too. chatted with them. cause like quite long very see them lerh. saw meimei also! so long never see her lerh. haas. erinna went home around 4plus. then karmen come meet us. then around 5plus, chrys went home. then around 8pm, the rest of us left together.

PS: erinna lin is my longlost twin! XD

i dont deny.

my heart is beating for you.

and i believe,

it will die for you too.

Walk away, Loved. 9:16:00 PM `